Its the first time I'm blogging at such an unearthly hour ... Its 3.24am but oh well ... Its a "must be awake" timing cause its the *Drum Rolls* WORLD CUP FINALS !!!!! Well SR is an unfeeling school... Gonna start school at the same time although other schools have compromised by starting at a later timing... Guess thats why SR is not performing well for the A Levels ... The students are probably disgusted with the uncompromising attitude of the school head ... Okay better not continue .. May get suspended =x ... Anyway, Im back to my deep thinking self again ( I prefer to use thinking deeply instead of thinking too much .. Pardon me =x) Rather disappointing mid year results... A almost certain F for chem... A most likely E or lower for Physics .... Maths aint much better... GP is like my only constant subject ... C5 C5 C5 C5 .... I seem to have seen the light ... People get worried when they have an E ... People swear to work hard and seem to ... What about me ? Top 100 as my target but I didnt even put in 0.01% effort into preparing for the mid years ,and I aint a smart person... Please grant me the power and determination to wake up from this situation... Just finished a super nice and touching anime recently... Although it didn't move me to tears like Elfen Lied... It sorta stirred up some feelings... 2 totally different people from 2 different times could in the end fall in love... Thier characters are totally opposite and they ended up together ... There are tons of nitty gritty stuff that build up thier relationship but I shan't continue further ... Anyway a quote from the show -I wish that this could last . I wish that I will never lose her- Emiya Shiro... I kinda like this quote cause it really takes the words out of my mouth ... But oh well, I'm just to weak to close the distance between us ... I think I'm rather childish in my thoughts ... Feeling happy and excited over a simple message ... Im not sure if it is normal or Im over-reacting on my part...Well, love makes one go gaga so they say ... This may well be the gaga being mentioned =x ... Its little things that you do that makes me happy ... Even something as meagre as having a 5 min conversation, a reply to my message or a smile on your face ... It makes the sun shine in my dark and lonely world ... Im seriously doubting myself... I question myself whether Im really what I am today ... Whether Im happy or Im "happy" ...Sometimes I really need someone to talk to ... Not crap but stuffs that have been bottled up for a long time ... I yearn for that
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